2nd losing month ever!

Yeah, so, not too fun. Didn't get to play too many hands, because I had lots of visitors to my home in Bangkok and then had to move back to England, and move into a new house ready for university.

Started October off alright, +11k.

Gl.

Variance.

So by now I obviously know that variance is a massive part of poker. Every player is gonna have their ups and downs. I have learned to cope with the losing. It gets easier the more it happens, and I guess apart from last month, it's been happening a lot this summer.

From what I have gauged from talking to poker players over the years, the vast majority of them would say that they have mostly been on the wrong side of variance. Some probably have been, some probably haven't. I have a feeling it's because losing makes the player feel worse, than winning makes the player feel good (I think I have worded that poorly, but I can't be bothered to spend time thinking about how I'm gonna re-word). That way the big losing days/months will stick in the memory.

Now, before I share my story of variance I will say, I know I've been pretty damn lucky in certain aspects of my poker career, those aspects can't be measured. However, all-in expected value can be. For anyone that doesn't understand it; Expected Value. It's basically the mathmatical expectation of my winnings when I am in an all-in situation.






This is a graph of my 10/20 hands over the last 9 months or so. The thin line is my EV, the thick line is my actual winnings. I'm not really sure what I should feel. I won 170k at 10/20 over this time, which is obviously a lot of money. But being $100,000 behind EV just really sucks a lot. It's a hell of a lot of money to not have due to a bit of bad luck.

As for this month, you may be able to tell, with the tone of the post, It's a losing one. I'm not particularly worried, because I have been playing well, and had these sort of stretches before, and come through them. Just gotta keep the right mindset and put in some work.


I leave Bangkok at the end of this month to go back to university. Which is pretty sad cos I really love this place. I've had such a good summer. Just hope I can get back into the routine of doing some work instead of doing whatever the hell I want.


Good luck everyone, but save some for me please!

End of the month once more.

Well, It's not... but I have been busy for the last few days and think I will be busy again tomorrow showing friends around Bangkok so I may not get the chance to have another session.





Happy with this, of course. Best month ever I think... should end up at 75k after rakeback.

Not too much more to add really. Will try and think of some monthly goals for September.


Gl, Rob.

Sick day.

Played this today. Feels good to comeback from being down. No tilt, just solid play.


As for the month, its going pretty well (hoping this doesn't curse it or anything):







...and as for life, going for a party on a yacht somewhere in BKK tomorrow for a birthday.. no idea where. I have a feeling i'm going to make my illness worse... but, oh well.


Now, as you were, August...

Pffff.. well at least I didn't lose!!

I'm gonna go ahead and get this first bit out of the way. I know moaning about making $15k in a month won't get me much sympathy, but I'm still (kinda) gonna do it anyway.






I was happy with the amount I played and the effort I put in. It was the way in which the month went. Dropping >20k in the first couple days sucked a lot... then a really good middle. Then last day, during a lesson, we drop just over 14k. It was a horrific last day to the month. There have been some of the wierdest hands I have ever played in the last few days. Played a fair amount of 25/50 in the last few days.. (I shouldn't really be moaning about a 14k loss, considering this really - pretty standard).

But August is a new month, lets get completely out of this downswing!! Started the month okay, +5k today.

Still out in Asia, having a great time, too.

Gl.

Long time no update!

Basically, cos writing about losing money pretty much sucks.

So... I am slowly creeping out of my downswing.. (hopefullyyyyy) which was 70k. Easily my biggest. Started off the month by losing a quick 20k but am almost even now. I'm pretty happy about this.

I am waaaaaay below EV.. but I don't wanna complain much cos this should happen to everyone at some point... probably even what I'm experiencing. Obviously through all of this I decide to rent out the most ridiculous penthouse in Bangkok just for myself, next to the one my friends are living in..... fun though.

Not much else to say, other than that I hope I completely recover from this downswing sharpish, cos losing sucks! (esp when you should be winning..).

Gl at the tables!

Rob

Update from Thailand!

So I had my first losing month ever last month. Wasn't fun, although I didn't play a lot at all.

Writing this from a penthouse in Bangkok. Didn't think the Wynn would be topped, but it def has.





Puts me like 60k below EV over 45k hands or something I think? Hoping for a better July.